Illumination For Today

We move though our our day to day doing the work before us, where we gain satisfaction in meaning, connection and significance. But at some point along the way, we may discover what used to bring us good pleasure, no longer does. Have I become a slave to compulsion and patterns no longer serving me and the life I want to live? Awareness is the first step, even when it's super uncomfortable. There's good reasons for being uncomfortable. Change can only happen when we are a bit restless.

When summer finally arrived and the sun's brightness came to stay, it was as though my patterns had too been offered great illumination. I began to see the settled dust on quite a bit. Perhaps, I had noticed it before, but I just wasn't really ready for the bright lights quite yet. To everything there are seasons. Dimmer switches anyone?? Perhaps the lights brightened a bit a couple of years ago when we helped friends downsize and I realized not only how we all accumulate so much stuff, but also how all that stuff felt so hindering and heavy. Perhaps light brightened up another notch when my son married several months ago, the love of his life, and his childhood room locked into another time. Dust. When my daughters moved home for the summer with all their stuff from college apartments, I had no room for their today, because all the yesterdays still lived here. More dust. For as much as I so loved the growing up years with my children, and had the best time with all the stuff, I realized I was locked down in gripping it. That season of yesterday rendered me unable to embrace today. The stuff had served it's beautiful purpose but now it had grown heavy and burdensome and uncomfortable. I grew restless. Change was underway and I was ready. Dimmer switch be gone!